Drew is in town! that means recording :) happy day. I've been wanting to blog for awhile about a various number of things that are currently clouding my brain and trying very ardently to break out. BUT first thing's first, recording
Drew's "roommate" (since he technically doesn't live here but like 1 day a month) Joe is a fabulous musician and has been recording Drew's mix tape (a mixture of other peoples songs with original music usually found in rap music and is free). He has about 9 songs so far and he wanted to put one that we have written together on there. I started writing it about two summers ago and Drew starting writing a rap part that fits nicely into the mold. As a musician I'm always fascinated by lyrics, why people wrote things they do, and their story behind it. So here's mine
Two summers ago when I worked at Camp Copass in Denton, TX I was very angry with one of coworkers and I evaluated myself and realized the disgustingness of sin that is constantly surrounding my heart waiting for a moment of weakness to come in and set up shop. So I picked up my guitar and began my best form of confession, writing a song. Here is that confession
Eradicate - Soma
I'm wicked and iniquity tends to surround my heart
It's time to come clean, of everything in between You and I
what belongs to You, I've been holding onto
claiming it as mine, but
(chorus)
It's all Yours, it's all Yours
every heartbeat, every breath inside my lungs
it's all Yours, it's all Yours
take this pride within me and set me free
(drew)
dirt, dirt, it seems it's always on my mind
but now it's mud cause my sweat and tears is all it seems to find
but as I step through it you know my feet are getting slower
as I fret about it you mentioned it i'm growing colder
i'm free to run from but is that what you call freedom
you cant pick up your feet how do you define to run
they say the grass in greener on the other side
but if you run with my Lord the grass stays green through the winter time
I'm casting aside the things obstructing You and I
such things as these, anger, malice and deceit
i wanna walk in the light
on the battlefield, I'm gunna bring my shield
cause You're the only one who'll get me through this fight
(chorus)
It's all Yours, it's all Yours
every heartbeat, every breath inside my lungs
it's all Yours, it's all Yours
take this pride within me and set me free
(drew)
pick up your feet soldier beauty's in the eye of the beholder
and these are your eyes so look through lies of the scolder
so many chains have been attached to a pretty picture
lets take chains of free will through righteousness through scripture
to see the true beauty, a lovers beauty, a God who's just
the price of sin of death that's why we earn to return to the dust
can't afford life's spiritual welfare
the second I believed I needed spiritual healthcare
cause my eyes adjusted now to see my state of being
now my dirt attacks me quickly, as I'm ever fleeing
waiting for deliverance father God you'll find me on my knees
from You comes the theme of my praise in the great assembly
(bridge- Meg)
Oh here it comes, the perfect storm
to prove to me that I was always very wrong
and I violate the fabrication of Your way to life
no more inhibition, false religion
will shroud my vision of Your truth
I scream for justice in a world of falsehoods
but inside, they slowly die
with no chance of hope for their lives
I'm sick of lying eyes, and hello, goodbyes
that never satisfy the very dying cries
of our world that screams someone rescue me
Chorus
-This song has been a long project. Started two years ago and I finished up the bridge part today. I'll break it down - Through the song I've been expressing my selfishness in pride, and other things that prevent me from relationship with God and by the time I get to the bridge, God's perfect storm is coming not as punishment but as refinement and to show me that the sin I'm confessing should no longer reign in me. To reveal to me that the way I do life is not at all how God intended. Then it transitions into looking at the world and how they "do christianity" and how again it's not how the Lord intended it to be. I get fed up by the end of people who give complimentary hello's and goodbyes and 'how are you? oh i'm good' when we're not all GOOD all the time. Those answers do absolutely NOTHING to satisfy the hunger of people for Jesus. Then turning my frustration into reality by giving it back to God in the chorus so that I can avoid becoming the very thing I sing against.
which brings me to another thing floating around in my head lately. the state of the world...oh ya
Of course everyone has all of a sudden become a brilliant scholar on everything that is currently happening and doesn't realize that every form of media they read, listen to, watch, ABSORB is going to be somewhat bias no matter what. This being said I'll start
I don't believe in using social media as a battleground for political and spiritual issues. Let me explain. When Dan Cathy responded to a question asked to him about his views, social media had a FIELD day and attacked him in every way possible. Of course they took it out of context completely and in my personal opinion started crossing lines that had no business being crossed. A lot of people chose to use Facebook in order to share their personal/political/moral opinions about his statement and the company that is chick-fil-a. A lot of Christian's used this opportunity to fight for him, stand up and agree with his statement. I believe it happened at just the right time, but I'm not going to post opinions about it because then my FB status becomes ground for an argument with someone that already has a hardened heart towards the situation. My words fall on deaf ears, and Greg read this scripture that says "Do not answer a fool according to his folly, or you yourself will be just like him." -Proverbs 26:4. If their hearts are already calloused then nothing you say will penetrate them so don't allow it to escalate into useless argument. Pray for softening of hearts instead
I believe if a man started his company on Christian principles then he has the right to run his company however he likes. Granted I am not knowledgeable of government and how all those things fit into a company but really? We claim this country was founded on God yet we crucify a man that chooses to run his company in a Godly way? Did he ever refuse service to someone that wasn't a Christian? No, because that's not what Christians do. If he gives money and supports foundations that you don't agree with, well so does almost every other company in America and I don't see you tearing them to the ground. The point is, it's not because he doesn't support gay marriage, it's because he's a Christian. Period.
So you ask, why are you blogging about it if you don't agree with social media being a medium for these types of issues? When you post something on Facebook, it shows up on everyone's news feed and they have no choice but to hear your opinions and it with a simple click they can 'like' it and then move on to the next important thing. A blog is VOLUNTARY reading. You may see that I posted a blog, but you don't know what's in it unless you take the time to read the WHOLE story. Which I think is our problem as Americans. We want simple, easy, access to information we like and we can disregard the parts we don't like.
Onto thought number two which kinda ties into the previous one. It's so easy to fight behind a computer screen and not actually do anything about it. Another reason why I don't post opinions and stuff on FB. Was I at chick-fil-a on aug 1st supporting it? Yes I was. I got in my car, waited in line, and supported the company that I believe is doing a good thing for the Kingdom. It would be easy for me to sit behind my computer (much like I am doing now) and say all these negative things but then that's the end. I refuse to give in to trend of posting my life in 120 characters and expect all these responses to make me feel valuable. It's hard for me even to post bible verses because I know so many people that post them just to maintain their "outward appearance" of being a Christian yet their heart and actions don't even come close to reflecting that. So if I do post things it's usually song lyrics, or quotes that I find meaningful in order to make people think. I'd much rather use my FB status to further God's kingdom than to get attention.
Call me unforgiving and harsh but it's about time that we get fed up with the way other Christians are acting and stand up for what's true. Of course we will do it out of love and someone that doesn't believe in God reading this may be turned away, but please hear me out. I love everyone, whether we have the same opinions or not because I'm called to, and because Jesus lives in me, He allows me to have a heart to love you. But we cannot claim to be ignorant any longer or say that all these people are 'intolerant', because ya know what? When you stand before God, He will NOT be tolerant. His tolerance is right now, while we are here on earth. So please, please at least attempt to get your facts about Christians from someone who shows love, not contempt.
The other day I had a friend ask me the longest running question against Christians...If God loves me and He is so good then why does He send people to hell?
God is love, mercy, forgiveness, but He is also justice, and truth. In the beginning we were given a choice, we chose wrong. Because of that there is a divide between us and God. In order to fill that gap, God sent Jesus to intercede on our behalf. Now the choice has been made easier. Love the Lord, who in all His greatness created a way for us to be with Him, or don't. Hell is a very real place that probably what any of us can comprehend because it's literally just separation from God. We have no knowledge of that because God is everywhere. He made all creation and there is evidence of Him everywhere. But if we do not chose God, then He has no other choice but to separate us from Himself because he cannot look on sin (and the only way to be free from sin is through Jesus). God cannot contradict Himself and allow you to be in His presence if you have not received who He is. simple as that, so He doesn't send anyone to Hell, they ultimately choose Hell by not choosing Christ.
I hope this helps because I've been wanting to write all this for a long time lol. I know sometimes I don't explain myself completely and things can be unclear, but I write here because I honestly don't feel like many people read it so I can pretty much write about whatever. BUT for those few that have stuck it out this long to read this SUPER LONG THING if you don't understand any of it, please feel free to message me via Facebook (please don't write on my wall lol) or email: meganhudson11@gmail.com
I'm always willing to talk and I can take criticism if you want to dish it. For those friends of mine that I know ultimately reject God and find every way to disprove Him, know that I pray for you specifically. I pray that you are no longer blind nor have deaf ears to the truth that I admit is sometimes difficult to sort from the lies. You are still loved...till later
*meg
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