literally...it's raining outside and the thunder is having a field day. But despite it being literal I am also eluding to a Garth Brooks song that was also a metaphor for a wife whose thunder was "rolling" aka she was pretty upset when she found out her husband was cheating on her. :/ luckily I am not upset because of any cheating, but rather something else.
I know this may seem kind of harsh for a first blog, but I am not new to the blog scene. I used to be very addicted to the website Xanga where I had at least 3 blogs throughout my time starting from when I was in 6th grade where my first name was MeGa_MoO...so glad I have grown up :) but despite my explanation, here it goes
I believe strongly in the power of confession. That the Lord cannot forgive and make new what is not confessed and so this is my confession. I am upset with an old friend that seems to not understand the reality of her actions, nor the minimal depth of her faith. :/ I hate to say this but it bothers me to know that she walks around claiming to be so spiritually amped when I have seen her heart and I feel it is filled with nothing but selfish desires. I understand immediately that I am not fit to judge nor make accusations on her and that I must leave this to the Lord- hints my confession and desperate need of forgiveness. She has recently parted ways from all who are close to me and in the process created some very VERY deep wounds among a dear friend of mine. This is so very hard to watch because I know that the Lord is a Lord of reconciliation, and does not delight in the fact that this girl REFUSES to make things right, despite that being something the Lord has called us to do. And why? because it's uncomfortable? SO WHAT!! so what if it's out of your comfort zone. God didn't call us to be Christian's that live in a bubble and never leave. I have confronted this issue as I feel a sister in Christ should out of love, but she just merely tells me (with no conviction) that it's awkward and she doesn't feel like making things better. To my other friend who has been wronged, I feel as though all I can say is 'wipe the dust off your feet and move on'. In Acts, Paul and Barnabas are trying to preach to this city that is outrightly rejecting them and literally kick them out of the city. Paul says very lovingly that he did his best and he is wiping the dust off his sandals meaning that he did what he was supposed to do and the rest is their decision. I feel as a Christian my best advice is to tell my friend, confront her and ask for reconciliation and if she refuses or rejects you, then move on. The Lord will judge her heart and He knows the true motives behind us. There is nothing that is hidden from the Lord and no amount of words or false beliefs we claim will deceive Him.
Lord I praise You for justice! That You never give us too much justice or too much love. that there is a balance between both and You know what we need at each second in our lives. I pray that as we continue to seek You and how You would have us handle situations that You make it clear to us each and every day how to live our lives in a way that is edifying to the body, and pleasing to You. I praise You for the friend I have that encourages and uplifts me, that is teaching me to be a better disciple everyday even if she doesn't realize it. I pray for my heart, that it not build bitterness towards those who are claiming to follow Your will, yet missing the big picture. I must extend them grace as You do to us and realize that maybe they are still in the process of learning. I pray You break their hearts and send someone that they respect and will learn from in order to disciple them in their walk with You. "Search me O God and find any offensive way in me..." (Psalm 139), my life is but to please You
til later...
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